Stuff and things.

I’m trying something new with Loud, he’s with me every waking moment he is with me at home. Well, except in the mornings and that’s when he decides to do naughty things like dump hair gel all over his bed then blame someone else. I have made it impossible to blame anyone in our home for his naughty behaviors; Boychild is woken up in the morning and once he us changed he’s no longer allowed in the bedroom, Boychild has a man cave in the garage where is spends his time. The girls aren’t allowed in the boys room and vice versa. It’s been 6 days of having a Loud shadow… it is not improving anything in any area. I’m going to keep going strong, I’ve got to do something. With having Loud as my shadow he is in constant conflict, he is in large groups (our family.) He fusses, whines, deliberately disobeys rules, screams at other children and is obviously overwhelmed. That puts me and him in my room a lot, where I can only have 2 other people at a time before he has some variety of issues. His caseworker is the used car sales man of workers, he talks a big game and flops. He was here yesterday and while he was here Loud was on the couch watching TV quietly and contently. The caseworker sat down beside him to talk to me and the other kids started to trickle in, before you know it 8 people are in the living room talking, asking questions, etc. During this time, as humans were trickling in, Loud has now built a fort of pillows around himself. Car salesman caseworker doesn’t seem to notice nor mind but I know it’s because he’s feeling overwhelmed by all the people… Loud is on his best behavior because the caseworker is there and he’s doing such a great job. This poor kid.

Speaking of car salesman caseworker, he promised me that Loud was going to visit a bio relative this weekend as we have a large cheer competition to go to in Palm Springs. Yesterday I sent a text to confirm the pick up/drop off time and he let me know that there has been no contact with the bio relative and I should find someone to watch him. YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME. I leave on Friday and it’s not easy to get agency respite for a kid with 2 days notice. I can’t send him to any of my babysitters as they’ve all kindly asked me to not bring him back. I cannot take Loud to Palm Springs to a cheer competition, he simply cannot handle that. 10,000 people and 10+ hours a day at a venue playing music as loud as a typical concert… I’m pretty sure he’s spontaneously combust. Here’s the thing; I don’t miss competitions. I didn’t attend one competition EVER and my girls asked that that never happens again, they needed me. I’m freaking out. I’m currently in correspondence with car salesman caseworker and he’s attempting to make things work. I’m leaving in 2 days.

Lemon is officially 6 years old.

Her birthday came and went so quickly! Now, Boychild’s birthday is coming in 9 more days. Then Biscuit and Husband’s birthday on the 24th of February.

Winter Formal happened, the girls looked beautiful.

The kids started playing golf on Thursdays in the Junior Golf Club. They love it!

I’m dropping weight like a boss, Husband and I have a little wager in place for the most weight lost. BUT, why does he look much thinner than me although he’s loss less weight? That’s crap.

That was anticlimactic…

The 24th came and went, how naive was I to expect answers? Talk about a joke; we stand exactly where we did when the children were placed with us. I’m saddened that these kids cannot be reunified, somewhere deep in my heart I expected them to go home by now. Not because I don’t like them, they’re absolutely wonderful, but because I’m ultra positive and I want the kids to be happy. They’re happy now but I know they’d rather live with their parents or other family members, who wouldnt?!

I’ve started stockpiling for school, in 6 weeks school will be in session. It’s anticipated that the kids will still be with us, I’m both happy and sad at the same time. I will happily love them until they’re reunited, pffft who am I kidding? I’ll love them forever. Oh, my, gosh. School is starting in 6 weeks!!! Panic. School clothes, school shoes, school supplies, school!! Aaaah. Let’s see, I’ll have a 7th, 4th, 3rd, 2nd, Kindergartner, and a Pre K student. Wow.

Let’s talk cheer, you know that my girls love cheering with Universal Sonics in Lake Havasu…Cheer is life to these kids. Well, Biscuit recently tried out for a 4.2 team and holy hello that’s all I hear about. Biscuit. Wants. It. Bad. So badly she pesters her coaches, asks to attend practices, and talks my ear off. I love that she is interested and I love that she has her own voice and fights for what she wants, it’s a proud mama moment, but sadly I don’t think she will make that team. It’s a higher flying position, Biscuit isn’t skilled in level 4 flying…I hate to see her let down but she feels pretty confident. I’ll let her be happy and optimistic, I’ll tell her she’s foing great (she is!), and pump her up. I want her to fight for the things that she wants and I want her to be successful in everything! Keep at it, girl! Bunny is excited to be on her team, she wants to work on her tumbling, she is happy go lucky as usual. Both of them are so great, I’m so proud of them and love to watch them. Lemon wants to be a cheerleader, She’s still too young. I bought her practice wear like her sisters and she is going to be over the moon once she sees her Sonics top!

Bells and Shy are loving summer camp! They love the activities and crafty stuff. I enjoy hearing about their days and seeing all their stuff. Speaking of camps…Biscuit just returned from Woodward West for cheer camp! She was gone for a week and had a stellar time. Boy Child should be going to MX camp the next month, a whole week away from us. He will love it, a week in Prescott with his dirt bike and the Lord. Yes, you heard right! It’s a Christian MX camp…I couldn’t be happier!

My boys, Shy and Boychild are currently grounded for disobeying me. Shy is doing a wonderful job at doing extra chores to shorten his groundation. I’m really proud of him for taking his punishment like a champ and taking the initiative to do something about it. He really isn’t liking the whole ordeal. Boychild, ugh, I love him something fierce but that kid is a pain in my butt. You see, he wants to do what Shy is doing by doing extra chores and shortening the 3 day no electronics ban for them. Bless his heart but he is clueless. He wants to do good but he is lazy and wants to do easy stuff if do things half assed. He cleaned his room by stuffing everything behind dressers, in theĀ  losets, etc. So, in the time it took him to clean his room, properly, Shy had successfully completed 4 small tasks that I had assigned. I love that he looks up to Shy and hopefully he can learn a thing or ten from him.

All in all, I’ve been feeling really proud of all of my kids, all 6 of them. I feel really loved and supported by Husband and very appreciated. I have been working quite a bit, I’ve been volunteering 4 times a week, I’ve made sure to plan fin family activities, I’ve been parenting (my fav!), and I’ve even put aside some me time! Things are going swimmingly…I know what I’m missing. I need to get my booty to church on Sundays! Summer has been hectic, I know that’s not an excuse. With 6 kids, work, fundraising, camps, summer activities, and down time I’ve just been busy. Yikes. When I type that I feel terrible. I should rectify this.